Monday, December 11, 2023

yes I am going to be late today..


11-12-2025@5:367m
Mental disease Needing to fix as the crusades in history Needed to save the people from Satan if defined as NON-human Leads to Judgements based on this. repent your Alternate reality experience Life is a disease ending in death. psycho therapy me worry. tools like inner childa Karma makes. States of Consciousness sick and healthy no difference! my karma is to worry! Jesus Believes He is God. This is The First heresy! from the bodi consciousness ог Cosmic consciousness is a transformation of of being into my New Realities there I Auther my Reality A make it New and Speak from the origin of myself and Who I am. My Original Reality includes the ultimate Reality Just As the ultimate inclydes I Am a flower in Bloom. A fog in light. This Truth of me is true of All. This the Morninality. Kind of revolution in this realization, leat`s to Great oneness of me and God and everyon Being A part of this universe aNd All, Realities Because I am A part of and with All, I can NOW. We Are Now. I am here. I Know who I am, Now but my morals, bind Patience and tolerance my vistner of like the herecy of All is.
Feel the Galaxies Move and be as I feel the Seasons change. I KNOW my thoughts do this Always because I am this. Now Bordom is the other to creativity. Be New person that can improve the flow up and down YeN+yang. makes a of Wifferen
11-12-2023 @7:30pm


I dreamt I was in a subway car at the end of the dream. I was under the watchful eye of the higher ups people because I had slid into the universe from an alternate universe that was where I am from .. in the beginning of the dream I was at my childhood friends place Joey and we Saw that the bugs all kinds of bugs were marching to the basement into the corner and disappearing.. we didn't know where they were going then we were walking around and his brother disappeared.. we looked everywhere we went to where the ants and bug's were leaving...I just sat down and all of a sudden I vanished to the alternate universe.. I was in some house and there were people women and dudes after a meeting with them..I n a big room it turns out people like me from the alternate universe were able to make body fluids at orgasm but everyone in the alternate universe could not and we started to get alienated for that but this alternate universe was much better than the other one I came from. The stuff I could do was making every mad at me or us..I ran out and found the device that lets me slide through the edges of the universe and I used it to go somewhere else.. there was a society that was mmm dumb not smart like that last alternate universe.. there were people carrying books but they could not read books I took the books and read them and had to teach them how to read the books I was reading a Bible and they didn't know what I was talking about.. so I continued and then they put me in a trial and wanted to lock me up.. I escaped to a subway car and everyone was still dumb.. I told them about big speakers with sounds that we have in our universe..it surprised them.. I don't remember when I woke up but yeah it was getting really bad 😞

This is a will into being as the reality we are at now. The archetypal plant is being all plants as the same leaf can be paralleled into the archetypal of humans in say Jungian archetypes. This integration of consciousness with archetypal awareness is accepting itself for a new sense of our human condition. Really great video. What is the essence of time but the ideas of our mind and space singularity. The new wholeness of spiritual life in our macro / micro and the real, here and now, singularity without limitations of form, structure, shape and or defined meanings that cloud the true ultimate reality as it is.

i feel like I have been crying for about 1000 years or more... my eyes are tired of crying.. they are crusted over... I can not shed much more then the dust of sleepy seeds lost in the dessert of dreamless despair or what ever. make it stop I will hand my world to you for the end the final flux of meaningless jargon on forgone off ... life is nothing life is death death is nothing ... nothing is more or else nothing more. being is less being is more ...
notice the thoughts of time broken in my mind or not...even real yet the tears of life the blood of death the meanings often mean less then what is ... or is not I will stop the thousand years of tears and dream what ever is not real.. or still in lost flows into the muse of muses ==== powers of even thoughts or odd ideas... breech the meek broke the joke bound the clown surround sir found on all of the new or old cry's of life and death... meaningless and less for farther we go out into nothing's void and again the nothing void's are numbered one to ten. bleak bleen creak creen just unjust not now but how are there even things ... or not.

One need not stop one's thoughts because they do stop of themselves. Within the process of patience, I miss having a "new" thought, but that's a virtue that I have forgotten so now it's new again.

I'm in my now, my peace and happiness is meaningless. I'm successful as a piece a part of the universe and yet the universe is One being a spirit of life as the living universe and I are one.. I believe I am feeling everything now as God's spirit of myself as I am.. As I know what I am and that I am awake and aware of myself being awake and aware with the sense of time disappearing into now. God is everything everywhere in now and also I know my consciousness is God. I am you as you are me, and we are infinite nothing yet we are everything but both and neither. The realm of the living universe is a single being that knows how to be all consciousness's and yet the same consciousness. With this collective conscience here I have my true self and my authentic being everywhere in now.. I have made myself as me and this is who I am. I am sure I am me... I have broken out of the loops of reality that drift and repeat over and over again such that I have no path and yet I travel every path all the time. I am my life and it is divine and sacred and it is true awareness of God because I have myself love of being both me and God in oneness yet I feel all and trust that feeling.  


God Grant me peace and serenity around me.
         Let me be honest and trusting with myself and you God
         Guide me to be and have sanity with my recovery process I am doing now.
         Help me feel the feelings I need to feel.
         Let my will and your will come together and be the same as one.

Amen